The Kool-Aid Kind of Love

The first kiss. The first look at the naked body of a woman. The first scent of the fragrance that binds the love of a woman’s sexual soul. We find ourselves trapped in this intoxication, this obsession of what we soon come to know of, as, ‘Love’. The desire for those beautiful innocent, fairy tale eyes to dawn upon us, is a quest we all hold dear in our hearts. And when it happens, that day that we have long been waiting for…, our heart starts to race, we can’t seem to catch our breathe and we find ourselves out of words, acting a bit clumsy.

Awkward dialogues, insecure looks soon start to fade away with your first love, we you both realize it doesn’t matter what you do, or how badly you mess up in front of each other. Nothing is going to change the way you feel towards each other. Nothing you tell yourself. Two years later… Things are not the same as they were the moment you met. How can they be, after you have gone through so much the last two years. You and your love are so close, you can even finish each other sentences. Life is good, but is it really?

More days and nights than often you find yourself wondering out of boredom, yes, boredom, what’s next. You even find yourself imagining the touch of another woman. You seem to find yourself wanting to live and explore, but you hesitate, not wanting to hurt your love, your first love. To most men, once the quest of desire has been conquered, another challenge needs to be on the map, otherwise, mentally, they will get bored. Nowadays, women are no different. Back in the old days, there was this word that actually meant something, ‘commitment’. Here is my version of what really happens to us and what really goes wrong with love, relationships and the thinking behind the word ‘commitment’.

Growing up, it doesn’t matter where that was, as long as its on this planet. We are defined by the culture of the community that surrounds us. As kids when they are between 2 and 5 years old, they are not tainted by the brainwashing of the ‘cultures’, and love everything around them with all their little hearts and souls. They do not place judgement, forgive easily, are honest, but only lack knowledge and if they had that, they would be no different than us. But that is not the point, my point is, that we all can learn from this premise moment in our lifetime. Over time, from what we were naturally suppose to be, we are mutated through conditioning of the mind to a different creature. But the raw DNA within all us cannot be brainwashed, or controlled. If our natural evolution is not on its path, our body, mind and soul are not at peace.

What happens to us when we die? Our bodies are either buried or burned. If we are buried, our body is food to the soil, which feeds the trees, bugs and crops that are eventually grown, which we later on in life end up eating. If we are burned, our ashes are spread into the air, or on leaves of trees, in water, again acting as current of energy. Imagine how many bodies feed a tree to grow, or forrest a field of crops we eat daily. Some trees are cut, made into tables, desks, hardwood floors. That energy from once alive souls is still alive within the tables, hardwood floors. And when we are enjoying our food, we are enjoying a cycle of energy that has been here before us. So the question that people often ask, what happens to us when we die is irrelevant, because we were never born.

Most people are disconnected with these thoughts and energy around them. Have you ever heard of a saying that if you think about something so much, that is actually happens. I am not taking about winning the lottery. I am talking about deep rooted desires and wants. The energy around you is alive, and has a faster connection globally to everything around you. I mean everything. So even when you are alone, you are not. So even when you lie and feel no one is watching, someone is, and that is the reason why relationships fail. When two people come together and one of them is lying to the other, the energy will eventually push the couple apart by making events happen that cant be explained. There is no right or wrong here. Even the one that is lying may need to learn a lesson of what is feels like to lose something special when you lie. If the lesson is learned, life will reward that person back with another gift, but if not. The struggle will continue for that person as he/she will repeat their lessons and never learn. And that is just life sometimes.

These days, people so loosely use the word ‘commitment‘ or yet, hardly use it at all. By definition that word is simple, meaning “The act of committing or the state of being committed.” Oh why oh why, can’t people these days stay committed? Are most of us just greedy, selfish, self-centered souls, looking to smack as much ass and dick in our lifetime as possible? The reason people can’t commit these days is simple, there are just too many options out there for people to meet people new people, than there were 5 years go or even a decade ago. There can always be someone better than the one you are with. That someone will always waiting at your doorstep or will be a bbm text away. This cycle does nothing but make drug and condom companies billions to avoid pregnancy. Sex. Lust. Envy. Vanity are at the fore front of desires among people today. Yes the term commitment is applied, but its very short term. I mean really short term, as in for a night or a few nights max and after that, you better blow up the freaking planet, otherwise, your joy ride is getting picked up by someone else, better or tastier than you.

The windfall of broken hearts that happen daily is countless and growing. Even the happy relationships are taking a toll on the new madness of the internet, as a new study finds that men will rather watch porn and jack off, than have sex with their women who is waiting for them in bed. So what does all this mean? It means that we are all drinking the same freaking kool-aid and we are all on this higher search of intelligence and spiritual enlightenment. The rate of our growth is so high that most 7 year olds know as much as we did when we were 17. Look up Stephan Hawkins theory on Singularity and that should pretty much sum up where we are going.

So what happens to love? Nothing, it just gets redefined into a new kind of love. One thing humanity has done well is, it has never given up on, hope. The simple pillars that we all want are honesty, family bond, trust and loyalty. And when we are ready, we will offer all that and then some in return. But only when we are ready, until then, we will just take, take and take.



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